Sometimes, there are things that are better off not being said. Yuna runs across one or two of them when she has a conversation with Auron after Zanarkand.

They say it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. Never losing doesn't seem to be an option.

AU - "Keep on running/don't look back."

2022 note AU where Jecht keeps absconding from the group. Rin (absolute icon) helps Auron realise he’s in love with Braska, and Braska changes his path.

Alternative link: https://springkink.livejournal.com/253075.html

He would wish for dreams had they been restful of late.

Braska will summon the Final Aeon in the morning. He has little time left to show his appreciation to his guardian.

Alternative link: http://web.archive.org/web/20090708141220/http://www.bearhome.net/laylah/lastwarm.html

Braska takes Auron’s virginity the way he does most things: gently.

They haven't had time alone since before the pilgrimage began. Now they do.

The trio stop in at Rin's Travel Agency

Alternative link: https://asylums.insanejournal.com/kinkfest/84829.html

The trials of Braska’s pilgrimage started long before he even left Bevelle.

2022 note plotty fic set before Braska’s pilgrimage, where they gradually fall for each other.

2022 note Look, there isn’t much out there that gives me the pleasure of reading about the OTP slowly getting to know each other and eventually, gorgeously, falling in love. I have read this more times over the past year than I would care to admit. Features: a lot of pining, masturbation, whipping, suicidal thoughts, worldbuilding, a near-death experience, a fistfight, women in positions of power, a sum total of one (1) kiss.

The frozen heights of Gagazet cannot collapse an indomitable will.

Up Mt. Gagazet and not necessarily down again, in the wake of Braska's pilgrimage.

Braska makes his best decisions in the bath.

The balance of power can be delicate, but Kinoc can tolerate being ordinary as long as there are worthwhile things up top.

Alternative link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/3153367/1/For-Love-in-Power

Braska, Auron and Jecht are waylaid on their pilgrimage to perform one of a summoner's primary duties.

Auron listens to Braska and Jecht talk about their children, and understands. He listens to them talk about their wives, and he doesn't. But either way, he admires them. And either way, he doesn't want these moments to end.

This is the way the world ends.

Because there's nothing wrong with devoting a story to Braska's rear.

A brief respite in Besaid, teaching the best game ever played to some uneducated fools.

For the Kiss Battle Prompt: SCENE: A beach. Jecht definitely did not steal Braska's robes. This time.

Alternative link: https://ff-exchange.dreamwidth.org/60066.html?thread=833954#cmt833954

Don't braid your bro's hair. Or do.

Everybody has a weakness.

Jecht and Auron discuss their parts of Braska's pilgrimage and come to a mutual understanding.

The Final Aeon is a distracting presence.

On the way to the last battle.

Alternative link: https://edenbound.livejournal.com/492375.html

Breathing is the last thing you let go of.

Alternative link: https://over-look.livejournal.com/52599.html

Still on the lookout for “Daddy’s In Deutschland”; other than that I like (70s) prog and (70s) Breton music.

All my fics, including those deleted from AO3, are at tre.praze.net/fic (browsable by date, by fandom, and in a few other ways). My collection of Braska’s pilgrimage fic recs is now at tre.praze.net/ffx/recs.

not entirely convinced that this thing is on

set p9k colours with pywal

User CSS for implementations of OTW-Archive

python utilities

dotfiles for ubuntu (20.04)

FF16 has a feature called “the thousand tomes”, which I am kind of obsessed with. It’s like the datalog in FF13 except more successfully integrated into the game. Also, it’s curated by a certain Harpocrates II Hyperboreos, who is an icon.

In an effort to be current for once in my life, I played the first couple of sections of the FF16 demo tonight. Still not sure if I’m going to buy it at launch and continue being current, or force myself to finish FFs 13 and 15 first and then probably get to this one in … like two years … but we’ll see depending on how the rest of the demo goes, I guess.

Please note: like other parts of my site, these pages contain spoilers.

A lot of Final Fantasy, but also Sonic, Pokémon, and others.

Some themes from British TV programmes, some Dan and Phil stuff, the sound of a modem.

A few piano reductions, some playing about with instrumentation/time signatures.

I’ve been composing music since I first sat at a piano, and since around 2010 I’ve mostly focused on arranging, transcribing, and orchestrating things. In these pages you’ll find lists of all my work in this domain over the years, with links to sheet music and MP3s for some of them. The older ones, in most cases, are less good.

from at least February 1984 to July 1986, see Our Father pp. 112–8

At the end of our meal, Dermot Morgan asks the waitress for a coffee. “Right away, Father,” replies the starry-eyed woman. Morgan smiles at her with the patient indulgence of the priest he isn’t.

A television studio, somewhere near Waterloo. A young man, in clerical collar and odious pullover, is tippytoeing around a set that purports to represent a deep cave, some 15m years old, in which he is trapped. And he is singing – solo, a cappella and at the top of his voice – Bohemian Rhapsody. “Scaramouch!” he bellows. “Scaramouch! Will you do the fandango?” … Sorry? What do you mean, why? You might as well ask why two dozen bunny rabbits suddenly materialise in the living room of a homely parochial house and nobody finds it peculiar. Why is because we are here to record an episode of Father Ted, the most surreal situation comedy to be screened since British television’s year dot.

Angry Father Ted star Dermot Morgan has vowed to continue his battle of words with the Catholic Church.

The television cameras were rolling non-stop over the past few weeks as the third series of the satirical comedy “Father Ted” was shot on location throughout County Clare. The stars of the hit Channel 4 sitcom were based in the Falls Hotel in Ennistymon for a number of weeks. It was home away from home for the duration of filming for the new series of Father Ted which will be screened in February.

The Radio Ireland opening party in the Jervis Centre was a lively affair.

RTÉ report on a planned move by the Shamrock Rovers from Milltown to Tolka Park, featuring Dermot, who “leads the fans and KRAM supporters in song with a rendition of ‘We’re Never Gonna Leave Milltown’.”

Regular slot in the first series, from 15 October 1988 onwards.

My connections with Dermot Morgan go back to the mid‐90s when I promoted a lot of music and also some comedy and satire around the north‐east, mostly in Dundalk but also sometimes in Drogheda and other towns, as well.

It started with the hapless and hilarious Big Gom and the Imbeciles in UCD’s Theatre L (the eponymous crooner being a send-up of that oversized Thomist of the country and Irish persuasion) and it ended tragically and prematurely 10 years ago after a triumphant second series from the surreal Craggy Island, home of the child-priest Fr Dougal, the satantic Fr Jack, the demented Mrs Doyle and the presiding genial, Fr Ted Crilly.

Ask anyone who has suffered the loss of a loved one and I guarantee you that at least 95 per cent of them will have been offered the well-meant words “time is a great healer”. I’m happy to tell you, that’s bollox.

Even now I cannot believe Dermot Morgan is dead.

The pilot with a fuel problem, who has to choose between crash landing now, on level land, or crossing the mountain hoping to make it to the airport on the far side – that pilot cannot pass the buck by consulting cabin staff or calling a mass meeting of the petrified passengers. He cannot delegate, dither or debate. To do his duty by the people put in his care he must make his move, fly down or fly on, in a lonely exercise of fallible free will. In short, he must act with arbitrary authority if he is to save the plane and its passengers. That is why Aquinas, after Aristotle, says that authority is a service to the people.

Dermot Morgan became famous in Britain as Father Ted in the surreal Channel 4 comedy series of the same name, about three bizarre priests living on a tiny island off Ireland’s west coast, but in his own country he was known for so much more.

Letter in The Irish Times, 1 April 1998

I keep misreading this as revenant kisses, so …

(a mildly pretentious fan poem, in a voice that would probably never use this poetic form. :p // but i post it anyway, because for some reason it was very cleansing to write, and sometimes the right words do come from the wrong mouths.)

Jecht says loudly ‘I’m not saying I’m not interested. You said a trade? What’s the trade? A blowjob for what?’

Auron rolls his eyes, barely visible beneath the sunglasses. ‘The trade is you get a blowjob and I get a picture.’

2022 note Not even the OTP but deliciously tropey and apparently it turns out that I’ll enjoy anything that includes appreciative descriptions of Auron’s body … who would have thought it!! Features: college AU, enthusiastic consent, fake dating, only one bed, lots of sex of different varieties, text messages, questionable fashion choices.

Inspired by this tumble post. https://www.tumblr.com/ethernalium/711154859026579456/do-you-think-auron-tops-or-bottom?source=share

Braska's last night in Zanarkand is full of grief and agony. His guardians wish to comfort him as well as be comforted.

Braska and Auron training for the pilgrimage

Alternative link: https://asylums.insanejournal.com/kinkfest/68688.html

A priest and his guardian come as missionaries to an Al Bhed camp, and the Al Bhed are going to do everything they can to convince the Yevonites to leave.

2022 note For a take that interprets “fallen summoner” to mean that Braska was already a summoner before his fall from grace, I can recommend [this fic]. There’s a lovely scene where teenage Auron gets drunk and falls off a bench.

He does this for all the daughters in Spira.

When the Pilgrimage leads Braska, Jecht, and Auron to Besaid during the harvest moon; they must participate in a pagan ritual and it ends up changing them all.

2022 note Braska and his guardians participate in a festival and consume an aphrodisiac. Despite that, more bittersweet than smutty.

Even at the end of everything, Braska is much too kind.

2022 note moments in Auron’s life, exploring his faith and his relationship with Braska. More of an unrequited love situation in this one but it’s gorgeous anyway.

Alternative link: https://areyougame.dreamwidth.org/131610.html

In Spira, love is not defined by superficial titles.

Any, Any, The things we do for love

Of course, Auron could be a threatening man when he needed to be.

...But it takes more than that to paralyze monsters in fear, Jecht demonstrates (to Auron's annoyance).

There were three; now there are only two, and the silence of the mountain.

Praying in Macalania Temple, Braska meets Shiva's fayth -- who looks about as much like her aeon as Bahamut's resembles his.

Alternative link: https://ff-kissbattle.livejournal.com/5608.html?thread=124136#t124136

Auron hates Jecht.

Braska, Jecht and Auron bond over ruined laundry.

Auron's thoughts as he hovers between life and death right after Braska's defeat of Sin.

Tattoos, Braska can has.

Alternative link: https://ladyfarrell.livejournal.com/1487.html?thread=40143#t40143

Braska carries the chill in his heart and asks his guardians to help keep it at bay, if only in a small way.

Don't go to bed angry and don't die with a weight on your heart.

Alternative link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/3881635/1/And-Some-May-Find-Peace

Sockin’ all over the world (but specifically the Metro Corridor).

Nag eus goon heb lagas, na ke heb scovarn. Also final fantasy ten I guess.

emacs config

code for my very abstruse python-based static site generator

Yes, it’s another FF16 post. I’m effectively in the final stages now: all sidequests are done, just trying to get through marks and chronolith trials to the best of my ability before partaking in the time-honoured Final Fantasy tradition and going off to kill God.

You’re going to say something about Jaime Lannister and you shouldn’t.

Posh people range from SSBE to more traditional RP. This includes the Rosarian Shields, who don’t have Rosarian accents. Clive and his ilk are towards the RP end of the spectrum (although note Clive’s pronunciation of “either”!); the Sanbrequois nobility take this further. Waloed is an exception (geographically isolated).

The new Backloggery design is neat but I prefer to track things offline, so I wrote a static site generator based on the Backloggery format that works with my system instead of having to use yet another internet-based tracker. No JavaScript and certainly no backend required.

Anyway, I mostly play Final Fantasy X probably. I don’t have full data on when I obtained/started playing some of my games, so some of these statistics are inaccurate.

A lot of Beatles, but also various other artists in disparate genres including ELP, Massive Attack, and Macintosh Plus.

Reharmonisations and descants for hymn tunes, some psalm chants based on weird inside jokes from my undergraduate days.

Cornish and Breton stuff, plus some other music associated with Cornwall that isn’t necessarily traditional.

Father Ted star Dermot Morgan’s childhood was made a misery by priests, he has disclosed.

LONDON An Irish radio commercial featuring an actor impersonating US President Reagan has been dropped to avoid upsetting listeners.

On Tuesday week last, RTÉ’s Network 2 was due to screen – after the 10.30 news and weather – the first edition of Newshounds, a new satirical comedy series from the Scrap Saturday merchants, Dermot Morgan and Gerry Stembridge. The duo were to feature as writers and performers, and former Nighthawks star Ann Marie Hourihane was to have a central comic role. But the show never went out: it was pulled and replaced with a filler called Yum, Yum, Yum – “a celebration of Cajun and Creole cooking in Louisiana”.

Politicians take themselves too seriously, the comedian Dermot Morgan said yesterday. He was responding to criticism of his television sketch in which he described the former Taoiseach, Mr Albert Reynolds, as a “Longford knacker”.

Just one week ago I interviewed Dermot Morgan at the launch of his third and sadly final series of Father Ted.

That would certainly seem to be the policy in RTÉ, where the hugely successful Scrap Saturday was ditched and Extra Extra promoted as A GREAT IDEA. Widely considered Ireland’s most talented and controversial comedian, Dermot Morgan has suffered more than most in a climate where safety remains the bottom line. Here he talks about Teasey and Haughey, Bishop Casey’s bedroom habits, Chris de Burgh’s ladies in bed, the loves Labour have lost in government and what makes a legitimate target – along the way excoriating RTÉ for their unwillingness to take even the slightest risk in the cause of decent comedy. Interview: Joe Jackson.

Originally intended as “Getting Morganised”, a series. [Our Father p. 77 says this was aired in 1983, but additional sources from the time say otherwise; I suspect a lot of it would have been recorded in 1983]

Two appearances: 15 October 1996 and 19 March 1997.

The Mass in London yesterday for the entertainer, Mr Dermot Morgan, was told he was a man of immense kindness and love. The parish priest of St Margaret’s in south-west London, Father Alexander Sherbrooke, said he had not known Dermot Morgan before he was asked to administer the Last Rites to him in the early hours of Sunday morning. But he knew he was a man of “immense kindness and love … and somewhat ironically they were priestly qualities”.

Dermot Morgan, who played C4’s Father Ted, was one of the world’s lovely men. I know, because I was privileged to spend several of his final few days with him.

Shortly after I was appointed minister for justice, myself and a bunch of people from the office went to see Dermot Morgan’s one-man show in Dublin. We filled a row. As was inevitable, Morgan started to do his P. Flynn impersonation, striding around the theatre and through the crowd like a teacher firing comments in a thicker-than-lead Mayo accent.

It was a sunny summer’s day in 1996 when I turned up at Dermot Morgan’s flat in south west London.

Dermot Morgan should, by right, be celebrating his 60th birthday tomorrow. But fate has no respect for talent, and so, at the age of just 46, one of the great rowdies of Irish comedy was lost to us.

A parody. Read it.

Alternative link: http://www.yaoiville.org/FFX_yaoi/archives/00000103.php

Jecht is going to be a hero.

Alternative link: https://ficwad.com/story/21793

Short insight(s?) into Auron and Jecht's relationship.

Before the place of souls, Auron takes confession from his own personal priest.

Braska's pilgrimage ends in the Calm Lands, when he calls his Final Aeon. It doesn't end like this. (But it might have.)

After being "kidnapped" by Braska and Auron, Jecht witnesses something he shouldn't see. Should never see. But he can't help enjoying it.

Jecht had never understood why women expected him to change after they slept with him.

Auron and Braska enjoy a little time to themselves.

Loneliness breeds desperation.

On their way to Zanarkand, Jecht, Auron and Braska comfort each other.

Alternative link: http://web.archive.org/web/20080423161124/http://www.bearhome.net/laylah/calmland.html

A summoner and a guardian watch each other.

The High Summoner Braska and his Guardians.

This is the end of their story.

How Lulu got her faith back.

Jecht finds out about Auron's sexuality in Macalania and gets curious. Auron lends a hand. Literally.

Armor is more than what you wear.

Alternative link: https://ff-exchange.livejournal.com/43454.html

The price of love is high, and is paid in blood and coin and reputation.

Shorts, drabbles, and 100 word pieces with varying content.

I have travelled a long road, from one world to another and back again. Now I must complete the journey.

Auron was prepared to face certain trials during the pilgrimage--falling in love with Braska wasn't one of them.

2022 note moments on Braska’s pilgrimage, mostly unrequited, a happy ending ten years later.

Yuna's mother and Auron both hate fancy Yevonite parties, but really, who wouldn't?

Would you tell someone you loved them on their last night on the planet?

“Hey, is that the missus?”

“Yes,” said Braska. Then, because he felt a little bad about it, he looked back and gave a little wave. She didn't wave back, but they never did.

“Nice set of...” Jecht gestured, roundly, but Braska just nodded. It wasn't inaccurate.

Jecht is cold and bleeding and would really like to go to sleep. But he can't.

Sinking in the far North, led adrift by alien currents. There is no home waiting for Jecht, there never was, not on these shores.

Braska knows sacrifice doesn't always begin with oneself.

Alternative link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/6098142/1/The-One-Who-Goes

Braska lies awake and wonders.

Alternative link: https://shoujo-s.livejournal.com/75652.html

Pilgrims on the High Road, and Jecht, being good at everything.

In the heart of the Calm Lands, Braska listens.

Alternative link: https://shoujo-s.livejournal.com/76309.html

Jecht had never been as scared in his life as he was the first time he fought a fiend.

A brief look at why he might wear the robes that he does, and why he chose to leave Yuna on a Pilgrimage to defeat Sin. Spoilers.

Alternative link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/1698285/1/A-Certain-Way-of-Walking

Listen to music from litrovers’s library (28,547 tracks played). litrovers’s top artists: The Beatles, 植松伸夫, Johann Sebastian Bach. Get your own music profile at Last.fm, the world’s largest social music platform.

Tracking things using static site generators

lissajous has forbidden me from talking to him about FF16 in great detail because he plans to play the game someday and doesn’t want to be spoilered; so the only option I have is to ramble on here about why I love absolutely every character in this game. They are all so good. Fair warning, this post is just undiluted enthusiasm from start to finish and mostly just consists of me saying “I love” a lot; I’m too thrilled by all these people to find varied ways of expressing myself.

Not for the first time, the FF16 update that came out this weekend was supposed to include the correction of “minor text issues”, but no official source has been kind enough to specify what those issues actually are, much to the chagrin to those of us who are obsessively trying to archive all the written content in the game (or is that just me? Surely not …). I always wonder if they’ve gone through and fixed the various tomes typos, but I checked one of the ones I remembered and it’s still there, so I guess not. I do see, however, that they’ve changed the spelling of Harpocrates’ surname: previously Hyperboreos, now Hyperboreios. I assume the latter is more in keeping with whatever Greek source this actually comes from, but it makes me wonder how long these changes will go on. Think of all those resources that now have the name in the “wrong” spelling! This game’s been out for nearly six months; how long are they going to keep tweaking it? Isn’t there a point at which you just have to accept the inaccuracies, come up with some in-world explanation for them, and let the game live its own life?

Arrangements of a few carols.

Wearing dog collar and purple clerical shirt, TV’s most popular priest sits down, takes a deep breath … and confesses an intimate moment from adolescence.

Father Ted has a confession to make. “I’m a long since lapsed Catholic,” he reveals, “and my religion is football.

MN: You could almost be Welsh with a name like Morgan.

Funnyman Dermot Morgan will forever be grateful to Father Ted.

Sir, I genuinely welcome Michael Commins’s remarks concerning my designation of Albert Reynolds. His right to dissent is paramount. I could assuage him by, pointing out the tongue­incheek nature of the remarks and the ironic spin on them. It scarcely matters either way. You like the joke or you don’t. Comedy can be notoriously subjective. Longford people contemplating a fatwah might ring RTÉ for advice.

“I have great sympathy for hookers,” says Dermot Morgan. “It’s like, ‘you’re on after the meal – and we want head as well.”

30 September 1987, Karl Tsigdinos in Car Driver

What do you really expect from a programme called That’s Showbusiness?

From 22 April 1986 onwards.

Clip in which Twink reminisces about her work on The Live Mike, with two clips featuring Dermot.

Friends and colleagues of Dermot Morgan yesterday agreed that his extraordinary comic ability was coupled with an inability to relax.

Mike Murphy reflects on his career on the Late Late Show, featuring some reminiscing about working with Dermot on The Live Mike.

Dermot Morgan, TV’s Father Ted, died yesterday after collapsing at a dinner party he was hosting for friends.

Next week will mark the twentieth anniversary of one of Ireland’s most loved actors, Dermot Morgan.

Representatives of everything he raged against were clustered around his coffin. Church, state, establishment stood awkwardly in the drizzle to pay their respects.

Fiona Clarke was with her partner Dermot Morgan on the night he went to that great comedy lounge in the sky … There was a bit of a do at 119B St. Margaret’s Road in Twickenham on February 28, 1998. Dermot’s sister, Denise, her husband, Declan, and a couple of friends, Jim Diamond and his wife Chris, had come to the Morgans’ flat in south-west London for supper. Dermot, she remembers, had just finished filming the last episode of Father Ted. So they lit the fire and ordered takeaways and settled in for the night.